Just blog about it...

For some reason, my font didn't want to set. I wonder if there is a way to edit it in my preferences?

The last few days have been pure "suck". No two ways around it.

I found out that Martha was put on a feeding tube. While this is going to relieve the horrible choking, and I should be glad for that, 94 is awfully old for a feeding tube. Good sense says the family should have just relieved her symptoms and let her slip away.

Starvation isn't that bad of a way to go, I don't think. Nor is dehydration. If you've got good meds on-board, anyway.

About my home life... Lately not good. Both vehicles were repossessed in the last two days. Dean's truck was picked up on Wednesday night, and my car was picked up yesterday.

We're also being sued for the cost of them.

With no way for me to get to work, that's going to cut out at least $1000 a month from our income.

Tomorrow we'll try to work together on a solution.. an old beater that I can use to drive him to work in the mornings, and then pick him up at night. Wood Ridge might let me transfer to first shift, and then it could be done.

Problem being that we're barely making anything right now, so getting a working car, getting insurance and tags on it, and then keeping it going through the winter is not looking very bright.

I was hesitant to even write about this. There's a lot of shame and anger in me over this situation.

Dean sits and looks at me, waiting for me to somehow "fix" this. Truth is, we wouldn't be in this situation if I could only convince him that we can not get out of debt by borrowing money. He just does not get it.